Saturday, August 26, 2006
ytd was t'cher day celebration. sch ended early. so went town with jo and yj. had ljs and later went for CLICK... jo and i ended up watching it tgt still (act we wanted to watch tgt on 8/8). hm, SRY grace, for pangsehing u girls. . . cos sch ended early, didnt felt like waiting till 4 plus. was struggling intially on whether i shld meet up with the ij girls until jo offered to watch it with me. was being told by my cousin tt the show was v humourous and touching. so the show ended up not to my xpectation. haiz...haha, so happie, the companies actually reply to my invitation for pw invitation. listening to energy new album now. felt tt it was quite nice at 1st but the songs at the back wasnt s gd s the initial few. wasted! when will i be able to feel the urgency for promos?? i havent start revising yet though i noe tt i only hav 3 wks left! arg... Like my msn nick, i do hope Aspire, Action, Achieve!!! haha, act their real meaning is my wish to get As for the H2 subs. mayb i will add Attitude and Aim for As in the 2 H2 (chinese and econs)... haha, so kiasu and unrealistic!! mayb it's jus my wishful thinking. =) but after seeing one of the nicks on msn "aim for the moon as if u miss u will fall amongst the stars". haha, so i shall aim for As in order not to fall badly, at least i will still be able to promote. why did i miss out gp when it is one of the crucial sub to promote?? dunno, not v confident in it! (but a aim for B shld be able to motivate me, ha)The urgency is gone, and my attitude seems to had changed, not being *attentive during lessons, adding on to not studying and doing tutorials only when im in sch. Wad has happen to me?? i'm losing focus!! Guess it's realli time to force myself to start preparing for the promos (i shld switch back to the actual me, the fun shld actually stop for now)... sacrificing 3 wks, hm i mean 1.5mths (cos the exam timetable is so so so spread out tt promos only end on 9 oct, sian), will be much better than wasting an entire yr of hard work! So, VIVIAN! It's time to WAKE UP!! and u better stop STONING during lessons! FOCUS, FOCUS, FOCUS!!
*being the worst ever of all
Vivian imagined this on 13:28
1. Put your music player on shuffle.2. Press forward for each question.3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!4. Tag 10 people to play this game too.5. Bold the questions and answers that swack. [dont understand this]How are you feeling today?"爱的力量" LOL! dis the 1st time im listening to dis song... hm, mayb after watching the magician of love, im filled with love which gave me strength to move on in life.Will you get far in life?解脱I will get far, being successful n happie in life s long s im able to get myself out of "it", untying the knots... Also, stop thinking too much!! How do your friends see you?Wait (the whisper song)mayb im moving at a pretty fast pace... it might be time to slow down to maintain our friendships. =) hm, whisper may simply mean tt i do hav a lot to say which are kept within my heart. mayb, it reps me keeping my secrets to myself... hahaWill you get married?IF I LET YOU GOhm, i guess so... "but if i let u go, i would nvr noe, wad my life would be ..." wad does dis mean? it's hard for me to let go of a relationship? so being unable to let my partner go, the ans is pretty obvious.What is your best friend's theme song?You Raise Me UpHaha, dis is quite true... they are ppl who will make my day, giving me meanings in life. Thanks! =D Luvs ya all!!What is the story of your life?想和你er, a life of companionship? though i do need my personal space at times, i rather afraid of loneliness.. mayb its my nature of loving to talk non-stop... lolz. guess, the story of my life simply revolve around ppl... everyone of them is the scriptwriter of the story.What was high school like?两个人的西洋棋LOL!! i cant believe dis! was in chess club in sec sch so ... haha... also, i might jus mean tt my circle of close friends is jus the one to two of them!! u know who u r! =)How can you get ahead in life?明明很爱你confess?? LOL!! jk jk. (grace, i noe wad u r thinking!) aiya, the song trying to tell ppl to be confident. so to get ahead, i shall b confident in all tt i do (which is rather impossible!) What is the best thing about your friends?Sweet Sixteenhm, they celebrate my bday for me... rmb last yr (which was my 16th bday), i celebrated it in a v diff way, went k with grace... and the best thing abt her, gg k box and recently study tgt with me... haha... jo provides laughter n fang is like my listening ear... CS, the "notes" pal. haha... anwz, thanks for bearing with all my craps!What is in store for this weekend?趁早nth much... jus finish watching magician of love. finally. mayb it meant 趁早 finish watching it n focus on promos from then on. it might b hinting to me to slp early, my mum jus came in to "warn". haha What song describes you?上岸aiyo, canto song. ya, im trying to learn canto. it may be revealing my desire to achieve gd grades and hav a smooth sail in everything (esp studies), reaching the destination and "live happily ever after"... To describe your grandparents?多爱我一天hm, im rather close to my grandparents, esp grandma... due to the busy sch life, havent been gg to their place s often, but they still stand a place in my heart though i havent been calling granny constantly too. (ha, but she jus called me today to complain abt my little cousins)How is your life going?Try AgainFull of ups and downs... have been trying n trying over n over again... whether is it PW (EoM, Surveys, Interviews), the tedious maths qns (Maclaurin) and most imptly the hard to understand physics!! but i believe with great determination, i will be able to overcome them one day! (im uncertain for physics rather) yup, GP is falling too... haiz.What song will they play at your funeral?There You’ll Beyup, there i'll be... my body cremated or buried while my soul in heaven( i really hope). like the song goes "in my dream i always c u soar above the sky". also, the memories of me will always stay with my loved one. "in their hearts, they will always be a place for me for all their lives". How does the world see you?CHANGE THE WORLDthe song has answered the qn! i will grow up to be one that will change the world. my actions or words will create an impact in years to come... haha. mayb it will be my mission! changing the world into a better place for the needy and minimise the no. of animals killing... they r jus so poor thing.. sad la.What do your friends really think of you?我很想爱他wow, dis is quite hard to ans... hm, im passive, nvr willing to take the initiative with regards to u noe wad. if i were to like someone, no one will noe it except me and myself??Do people secretly lust after you?一眼万年dunno lei.. guess not. who am i anwz(P1)... somemore, 一眼万年(Pk+1), meaning an admirer will only appear every 10000 yrs... haha... so since P1 and Pk+1, Pn is true (im no one to someone) How can I make myself happy?CradleI need assurance, the feeling of being wanted?? haha, but im wanted, at least by my family... support from friends and family. hugs hugs... find the 'someone'... What should you do with your life?last slow dancestop slacking and do sth useful, spend my time wisely... it's time to speed up! Vivian, u hav already wanted 17 yrs of ur life!Will you ever have children?CryAiyo, Children=Babies=Cries... so qiao. i think so... one or two if i happen to get married... hm, the above is full of rubbish... jus for fun!for those who are interested, you can copy n do too.=D=D=D=D
Vivian imagined this on 02:09
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Today is my 17 and 2 mths bday!! LOL!! being random!! things hasnt been going well!! Hope everything will change for the better after today!! =D Your Inner Blood Type is Type A |
 You seem cool and collected, though a bit shy.You are highly driven and a perfectionist, but that's a side you keep to yourself.Creative and artistic, you are a very unique person who doesn't quite fit in.People accept you more than you realize, seeing you as trustworthy and loyal.
You are most compatible with: A and AB
Famous Type A's: Britney Spears and Hilter |
Vivian imagined this on 19:59
hm, here to post... shall start from the eve of national day i guess. cj had double whammy (fund-raising walkaton) on tt day... walk for abt 6-7 km if not wrong. was so tiring. after tt, went to town with jo. we planned to either go for "CLICK" or k box and we ended up in k box (as expected). rmb on mon, we were still drawing lots to decide where to go. 1) k box, 2) movie and 3) to her place for mahjong... LOL!!! both of us drew movie but i wasnt v excited abt it though i wanted to catch click. when we reached cine, we went to check out on the time slot for the showing of click. the earliest was 12.50pm which was filling fast then... and being a show of approximately 2hrs, we wld definitely be late for k box. hence, we decided not to watch and go for k box instead. having abt 2hrs of spare time b4 2pm, jo and i tot of gg to the k box at lot 1 which is nearer to our homes. so we went to cine k box to ask for lot 1 no. Later, we went on for pastamania (which was decided days ago). however, 5 mins later after looking through the menu, i suggested to jo tt y dun we go for long john silver... LOL! troublesome me... so we left. and at LJS, we met cheryl... LOL, we were still toking abt her a min ago when we passed by subway.jo called lot 1 k box and was told tt the session for the day was only 3 hrs instead of the usual 5hrs as it was the eve of public holi... thus, our mood was a little dampen. while eating, i called lot 1 k box again to ask y? and if we could extend the session if there wasnt many ppl... hehe, stubborn me! coincidentally, jo's bro went to cine for click too... so jo sort of played a trick on him... conversing through their phones. anwz, we oso went to the k box at lvl once and the one at lvl 4 for 4 times to make enquires about the price and duration... sad to hear, if we were paying for students' price, the session is only 2 hrs. sian diao... so we spent lots of time pondering if we were to go for k box or jus go for the nxt session of click... at 1.30pm, we decided on k box but was unable to enter as the rooms were fully booked. hence, we went back at 2pm, jus to realised tt there is no students' special price as it was the eve of national day... so, we were suppose to pay $15+++ for 3hrs of singing... so ex... heartache!! it was double the usual price i pay! after hearing tt, i was like "huh", "er", and jo said it was all up to me if we are gg to enter... having waited for such a long time, i decided to go in and 4get abt the cost, jus enjoy myself...the total turned out to be $21 each but we got to sing till 7.45pm instead of 5pm... hahahahaha... so fun... we were v high then... and we gave each one a song... esp the 4 heavenly gods and journey to the west characters... i too had my individualised song and it was quite a no. of them... (eg. yi jian ni jiu xiao{such a old song}, wo jiu shi wo, feng kuang shi jie, zhong jie gu dan, bao chi wei xiao, etc...) jo's one was "ji de" as she sang tt during the cj singing competition... those tt we gave to others were "sun wu kong", "ai qing shu","wang qing shui", "ni hao du", "dui ni ai bu wan", "nan ren ku ba bu shi qui", "wo de mai ke feng", "yi ge ren de jing cai", "ring ring ring", etc ...as for wed, intended to stay at home and mug for upcoming CAs, i the end i only did one topic for physics and spent the rest of the time chionging "the magician of love" which was a rather nice show... however, only manage to watch 5 eps though i spent to whole day due to much time spent on loading and internet explorer being "hanged". this show can b the slowest show i ever watched. till now i have not yet finish watching... meanwhile, i too watched 'wei xiao pasta' ep 4... was so funnie and cute!thurs went over to my granny place for mahjong session with my cousin... haha.. and heard from my cousin tt she was oso at cine on tues!! lolz... mayb, we aint fated to meet... fri was a short sch day as lessons ended at 2pm. nth much, jus another day filled with laughter, thanks to jo. ya, went to west mall to meet my mum and aunt... and later came my grandma... my aunt bought me a bedsheet and a converce sch-use bag (cos my previous white bag, being unable to withstand weight, has torn apart on and near the handle, sian diao... waste my money, only bought it for a few wks, and wasnt v cheap.).sat went over to my granny place again for a stay as my aunt wasnt ard, so sort of supervise my younger cousin with their sch work... however, they were stuck to the com all the time... planned to study phys at my granny place but was to no avail... did maths tutorial at abt 9 plus at night... then went back for tv till 1 plus and it was bed time... watched the last ep of Virtues of Harmony on ch 8 though i watched it b4, since its the last ep.sun, spent 1st half of it slacking, and second half mugging for physics test which was held today. went to bed at 11.30pm but suffered from insomia for 2 hrs... sian... mum said i was too stress... then in dreamland, i saw myself doing differentiation qns... lolzz... maths test is on coming fri which is still quite long from now, i tink...today, had chinese and phys tests (one aft another, no break)... i didnt study for chinese, jus hope i will be able to do s well s the previous time... when i saw the chinese paper, i was like "oh no, y is the qns asked in such manner, im so dead!" luckily, i managed to do them... haha. phys test was all right (i hope), i wish or rather i expect to pass... lets wait and c... also, got back gp compre ca today... i actualli got 1/9 for AQ... LOL la!! the lowest score ever, break my record liao... jus manage to pass on the dot while others (which is quite a no. of ppl) did well... yup, and i brought my new bag to sch today... the material is v stiff... haha... also, got myself into deep trouble... my PW grp carried out our survey on freeonlinesurvey.com but we didnt noe that it will only last for 10 days, afterwhich we would hav to pay to access it... sian... this means tt all the previous surveys tt i got my friends to do r down the drain... wasted effort once again! luckily, i hav nice nice friend like grace who doesnt mind to do it again. =D k, ending off, watched 2 eps of aqmfs. smile pasta ep 5 hasnt been uploaded so i guess i would only b able to watch it tml... sad! hm, gtg watch tv cum study for econs test tml le.sudden inspiration--> Quote of the day: Dont let misunderstandings block ur way!!! (LOL, with reference from aqmfs =p)
Vivian imagined this on 19:29
K, im here to blog or rather im trying to vent out everything from inside. so if u could, dun even bother reading dis entry cos i dun realli wanna affect ur mood... for no particular reason, im feeling rather depress inside now, i jus hav to urge to cry (or is it jus beside my eyes r too tired s they hav been opened since 6.30 dis morning)... mayb it was bcos of those shows i watched??Promos is getting nearer, and seriously im v worry... everything seems so hard to understand now and im really really bad in killer physics... for wks, i hav been telling myself to study study study, but wad happen in the end??? i nvr once did it... at this pt in time, i finally understand wad it meant by "words with no action"!!! im feeling stress within and who can i tell?? my mum would say relax girl, dun push urself too hard.. and friends jus think tt im doing fine n is overly paranoid... but im not, i m really really worry... mid-yrs results were fine but i knew it was bcos i scrap through them and luck was by my side. would dis still happen for promos? how i wish... however, i dunno y im losing the momentum to study after mid-yrs. the inner me is saying tt i so want to study and work towards my goals. but the other side of me is simply tired out. can u believe it. i actualli sleep at 10 plus every night for the past few wks... tts so unlike me... but tts for the sake of my health and i dun regret doing tt... wad i dun understand is tt, how can having 8 hrs of slp everyday still make me feel lethargic in class? and im starting to not concentrate during lessons... wad happen?? i dun want to b back to the sec situation. it was miserable then... sch ended at 1pm today and i planned to study, however its once again undone...oso, i would like to apologize to ppl (esp cheryl) if my words abt tests and exams had upset u... i didnt meant it. it's bcos i set v high expectations for myself, i dun mean to grumble on purpose or anything... u can ignore them cos they r actually meant to be used to reprimand myself.ppl always ask me " do u mug?" but how shld i ans? if i say i do, tts not true cos i havent been doing tt constantly... however, if i were to say i dun, im actualli lying cos i do read up when i suffer from insomia at night... but vivian, wads wrong with mugging?? u shld b proud of it, dun u? didnt u quit band jus to focus on ur studies? so wad r u afraid of?? the phrase "i studied" jus seems so hard to come out... cos either i say yes/no, im still lying... so wads the pt...meanwhile, i really admire jo hsuan... she v optimistic and is not easily affected... i hope to learn from her... for the whole yr, since the end of O lvl, i feel myself changed a lot... im no longer tt stubborn and demanding... but i guess this changes still hav to b improved in order to live everyday happily...i may seem/look like im v happy in sch everyday... laughing like siao when im with the girls... but who actualli noe how i feel within?? mayb no one even care abt how i feel... for a v weird reason, jo is my "kai xin guo". she always make my day. i jus feel happy and laughters jus come naturally when i c her...and i discover sth tt day when i accompany jo to mr tan office... i realise i fulfil 5 symptoms of depression... but wads ironical is tt how can a depress person noe tt she is depress... mayb im jus thinking too much.yup, and to add on, my cls had a new phy relief t'cher... and i really dunno y, i feel tt my phys is gonna be hopeless... since the start of term 3, im totally lost for phys... im totally blur for waves n superposition... Arg!!!and last night, i actually had a dream of me failing chemistry... i hav been telling myself to relax... but in fact, im already overly relaxed... spending most of my time on shows... k, finalli the 9pm show ended and the ending was to my expectation... v happie... but would the end of the show pushes me to study or would i be hook on the new show on this upcoming mon?Haiya, this whole entry jus seems totally senseless... im contradicting myself... Am i lost of wad?? whenever i qn myself, i would find a soln for myself... but the prob lies with, would i adapt that soln??i only hav a qn for myself. "What do i really want??" (a nice A lvl cert or jus make it to NUS/SMU since accountancy/business studies only require a pass in o lvl a maths..) anyway, after so much... i do feel better now... Phew... its 12am now and its a brand new day... a new beginning... the above would be left as history!! Rmb : "tml will be better!" =D
Vivian imagined this on 23:28
